Journey to the end... Destinations are few...

I desired you more than Food or Drink..

My body.. my senses... my mind..

Hungered for your taste...


I could sense your presence in my Heart...

Although you belonged to all the World...

I waited with silent passion..


For One Gesture..
For One Glance...
From YOU!!!!


Disclaimer: Not my creation...

Dead Feeling, corner room..,



Slowing breeze and winter’s noon!



Provoking thoughts, lay waste,



Rushing Cars, ajar pane!



Delusion, Yes! Delusion again!



Tear drops, mop them off,



Deceased, Belief and Dreams of heart,



Yes, it hurts! Hurts a lot!!!

Vagabond in the search of, I found my land sanguine,

I saw it green and full of hope…

So, I laid a red tent and I put up a stove…

Wafted by winter wind,

I needed a wooden floor to call it home,

So, I built a mansion, with teak wood,

With colorful chandeliers and ceramic bulbs,

I painted the walls with ruby, emerald and pink…

Got a carpet with cream fur of satin…

And a brown swing chair, to rest in peace

Happy and demented, I was living in…

Until I realize, this was the worst it had ever been,

The Storm had started months back,

And would last for months more...

As I peeped out, colorless mural was all I could see…

Not a soul, not a tree, not a bird beating its wing…

Ravenous longing and anguished soul…

Colorblind eyes, dying heart and desolate home!

I had now, a house full of ceded dreams…

It was a wait, and an endless one…

For the Spring, seems will never come!

All just white and a discerned certainty...

The Journey to the End…

A destination final, real and mean!!!

Through the darkness,

Hunch of piercing light rays…

Growing glimmer blinds sight…

The sprint, killing legs…

The knuckles twisting, jaws squinting…

The roars and the howls, leisurely retreating…

Midnight moon!!!

Stealth air, gushing so loud…

Pounding heart, steaming sweat…

Is this the last run?

For a new life, after The End!!!

Is kinaare leharon ka unmaan wahi hai..
Wo hain nahi..
par unki aarzoo wahi hai..
Fiza mein mahak wahi hai..
Fool khilte nahi..
Par khushbu wahi hai..

Dekhte hain khol kay pitara apna..
Wo jang lagi ghadi,
Wo matmaili rumaal,
Wo tasveer..
Ab bus wahi hai

Subah wahi hai..
Shyam wahi hai..
Suraj wahi hai..
Chand wahi hai..

Ho humsafar na tera jab kahin..
Saaya mera rahega tab wahin..
Tujhse kabhie na ik pal bhie main juda..

Dhundhla jaayein jo manzilein..
Ik pal ko tu nazar jhuka..

Jhuk jaaye sar jahan wahi..
Milta hai rab ka raasta..

Teri kismat tu badal de..
Rakh himmat bus chal de..

Tere saath he..
Mere kadmon ke hain nishaan..

Khud pe daal tu nazar..
Haalaton se haar kar..
Kahan.... chala re
Haath ki lakeer ko..
Modhta marodta...
Hai hausla... re..

Toh khud tere khwabon ke rang mein..
Tu apne jahan ko bhi rang de..
Ke chalta hoon mein tere sang mein..
Ho shyam bhi toh kya..

Jab hoga andhera..
Tab paayega dar mera..
Uss dar pe phir hogi teri subah..

Mitt jaate hain.. sabke nishaan..
Bas ek woh.. mitata nahin.. hai..haye...
Maan le jo har mushkil ko.. marzi meri.. haye..

Ho humsafar na tera jab kahin..
Saaya mera rahega tab wahin..
Tujhse kabhie na ik pal bhie main juda..

Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda,
Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda!!!

Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda,
Tu na jaane aas pass hai khuda!!!

Stay Just A Little

I heard it in your voice when your love died
On a telephone connection stretching miles and miles of wire
You said it was over and then cried and cried
You were gone before I said goodbye

Would you stay just a little, my love?
Would you sway just a little, my love?
'Cause the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up
If you stay just a little, that's enough

It kills me as I lay awake at night
Remembering the last kiss that we shared doesn't feel right
Is it impossible for me to win this fight
Keep you a little longer in my life

Would you stay just a little, my love?
Would you sway just a little, my love?
'Cause the hole in the middle of my heart needs filling up
If you stay just a little, that's enough!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lTc83qVy4O4&feature=related

I want you to know
That you don't need me anymore
I want you to know
You don't need anyone, anything at all

Who's to say where the wind will take you
Who's to say what it is will break you
I don't know which way the wind will blow
Who's to know when the time has come around
Don't wanna see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye

In summer I can taste the salt in the sea
There's a kite blowing out of control on a breeze
I wonder what's gonna happen to you
You wonder what has happened to me

I'm a man, I'm not a child
A man who sees
The shadow behind your eyes!!!

DENIAL

ANGER

BARGAINING

DEPRESSION

ACCEPTANCE

The Sun is going to be up and I still can't find sleep.
Where is the rain, it will again be summer heat!
I can hear,
The birds chirping,
And I can see,
The trees swinging,
To the morning breeze,
Why can't it just stay? Stay with me…!
And be my everlasting Bliss!
I love the way it is...and I would love the way it is gonna be…
Just give me a moment...a moment more of Dream!

May there be no ego... May there be no fight!
May there be Sun... and always light!

May there be hungry brains than hungry stomach,
May there be honest feelings than hypocrite quack!!

May there be smile and tears only for joy,
May there be no sin and everyone who plays win!

May we all turn babies and the faces never tarnish,
May we LIVE the journey for the destination sweet.

It is just one of my experiences that I wanted to share.

Today, I wanted to have coffee... so I stopped by this 'street cafe' stall and asked him for a coffee, the shop owner didn't have change of 100 bugs, so I thought let’s try the cheese grilled sandwich and that way the change he will have to return will be manageable for him.

So I ordered for a 45 bugs cheese grilled sandwich, it was prepared with three slices of bread stuffed with fresh vegetables and cheese and some sauces! Three slices of bread with all the stuffed thing was grilled and cut into 4 pieces and served with some ketchup... they looked HUGE... and delicious. As I started consuming it in, after like 3 minutes... and managing to finish two pieces... I was so...totally totally stuffed!!!

But, then I realized my social responsibility of not wasting food... and took 5 more minutes to finish the third piece! God… that was one hell of a task….. and after that… I hit the dead end!

Somehow, my conscience didn't allow me to throw the 4th piece into that big dustbin which was already filled with food wasted by several people, even if I would have tried to throw it there... I guess five more things from the dustbin would have found places outside the dustbin (Ever heard about Law of Cohesion???) but I couldn’t…. I remembered that innocent face.

I was feeling so bad that I started walking down the street towards her. She always used to look at people passing by... with one hand stretched... torn clothes... face filled with mud... and her health, as if she has not eaten since months.

When I showed her the sandwich piece and asked if she wanted it, she replied with a low voice which was barely audible… but I could make out… “Ye kya hai? (What is this?)” I said “khane ka hai (Food)”, I gave that fourth piece, which cost some 11.25 bugs, to her and turned back.

On my way back, I saw a street food vendor, he was cooking Rice and Daal (pulses) and a Curry. I remembered someone telling me… these street food vendors charge 15 bugs for one full plate of food. I was ashamed, I was ashamed at what I had done in past, what I did today… and what I could have done today… I was ashamed of what I had seen when some of my friends do it… what I see everyday happening at several big food joints… huge food courts… restaurants…and so many other places!!

The 10-20-30 bugs food that we waste after already stuffing us with more than the required food, can actually be a full plate meal to someone… someone who has not eaten full stomach in a week!!

Let us think about at least one person… who is hungry… let us not waste those 10-20-30 bugs… let us stop... Think for a minute… whether… there is someone… we see everyday... Who is hungrier than the dust bins…! Let us help them!

Save food… Save life…!!!

Dil ki baat bataun tujhe... Aey mere Saajna!
Kitna main chahu tujhe,
Khushiyan saari waarun tujhpe,
Jeena marna... Ab tujhse... Aey mere Saajna!
Aa jana.. Aana.. Mere Saajna!!!

Dil ka ye rishta, jaane hai kitna purana..
Thehra hua hai kabse..
Sapno ka lamba... kaarvan..
Sapne wo ab sach banana...
Jeena marna.. Ab tujhse... Aey mere Saajna!
Aa jana.. Aana.. Mere Saajna!!!

Andheri raaton mein aaj phir... Yaadein satayein!
Chand mera yun Chupa na.. Saajna..
Dekh le ek baar phir wo aakhen..
In aakhon se behte... har ek aansu saajna..
Sapne wo ab sach banana...
Jeena marna.. ab tujhse.. Aey mere saajna!
Aa Jana.. Aana.. Mere Saajna!!!

Pyar hai ab bhie utna.. Jaane tu.. Jaanu main..
Phir badhati kyu jarahi... Duriyaaan!!
Labzon mein ghulti thi.. ankahee joostajoo!
Baaton ka kahan khoya.. silsila saajna
Jeena Marna... Sab tujhse... Mere Saajna..
Aa Jaana.. Aana.. Mere Saajna!!!

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat,
But always keep that hunger!!!

May you never take one single breath for granted,
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small,
When you stand beside the ocean!!!

Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens,
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance...

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance,
I hope you dance....
I hope you dance....

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance!!!

Living might mean taking chances,
But they're worth taking,
Lovin' might be a mistake,
But it's worth making!!!
Don't let some hellbent heart,
Leave you bitter...
When you come close to selling out,
Reconsider!!!

Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance,

I hope you dance...
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance...
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance...
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance...
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small,
When you stand by the ocean...
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens!!!
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance!!!
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance...

Dance...
I hope you dance...
I hope you dance...
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance...
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance...
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance...
(Where those years have gone)
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance...
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

- Lee Anne Womack

"If we could sit together a moment
And talk forever just to pass the time
I would smile as the shivers and chills run down my spine
With your eyes are locked on mine

Oh we will fill the metro skies with country air
And when you close your tired eyes I'll meet you there
I'll meet you there

Deep inside of you there’s a ruby glow
And it gets brighter then you and I will ever know
There’s a rushing sound that surrounds us when we walk alone
And it’s everything we've never known

Wander down the street
And I would be the pavement beneath your feet
If we could just be immobile for some time
And finally figure out the way we feel
About the missing puzzle pieces and cloudy question marks
It still looks a bit surreal

Oh I tend to disappear here and there
So concentrate and you’ll feel me everywhere
And will feel the metro skies with country air
If you’re lost when you close your eyes I’ll meet you there

You could be anywhere
I’ll meet you there
You could be anywhere
Open your eyes and see everything you can be
I'll meet you there!!!"
- Owl City



Something... actually rushed down my spine as I heard this song, It is 2:30 AM, I was trying to sleep, but sleep would not come, mind flies back to the lost time of 2006. It is so strange, today, I have lost the immense zeal of fighting, fighting for igniting those emotions.

With constant NOs, I kept on trying, I pushed, I pushed, I explained and I explained. Months passed.. every week, I had two answers.. Yes... oh No no.. But I didn't give up, coz I felt no problem is a problem big enough. (I feel 2006 was the foolest year of my life, I shouldn't have done that). Relationships can not work like this, it is so mutual. The zeal need to be there both side.

Not sure if two people, one who always see solutions and the other who always see problems can understand each other. A pre-conceived notion, an ambition, a fear, a pain or a simple problem is individually enough to destroy a relation. So contrary, to what I always used to believe.

I was a fool, yes life gives you few problems including ones which can not be solved, they change the life like one of those volcanic eruptions, and you can see nothing else than the red hot lava all around.

God bless all who are going through those phase of immense try... trying to make a relationship or trying to make a relation run!!!!

It is merely a belief, few beliefs are based on logic, like science... but not all...!

Love is a belief which has no logic, you destroy the relationship of love when you try and find logic of being in Love! The morning spray of deo is love, the bed tea is love, staring God's idol is love, walking in rain is love, looking at starlit night is love, looking at a baby smile is love, the smell of flower is love, holding hand is love, crying laughing is love, creating poetry is love, being alive is love - yes love for life!

I feel blessed, I am still alive, I have all my organs and body parts intact!!

Yes problems will still come, and I may not be able to solve all of them, so accepting few of them the way they are and moving on can also be a solution, those problems may actually decide a new path for our lives, and may give us a new life, which can actually be worth living.

"Deep inside of you there’s a ruby glow
And it gets brighter then you and I will ever know..."

Yes, you will know and I'll meet you there!!!

Life is Huge, moments repeats itself...

I see her right beside me... in the picture... we took in our dreams!
She is holding me and still smiling for future unseen!

I recollect, she was my inner fire... my only desire...
With her, I planned my life complete!

With her,
I decorated Rainbow, behind the dark clouds so mean,
With her,
I wanted to fly like a bird,
From the mountains to the unending sea.

She was my only desire,
My only window,
To this heavenly world green!!

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends

Like my fathers come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when september ends

Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when september ends

Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when september ends!!!!

I walked in you walked out,
I knew right then something was up!

Ya said 'don't ask me no questions won't tell ya no lies'
It comes as such a surprise!!

Think i'll close my eyes to the pain..
'cause tonight in don't wanna know where you've been

Baby just swear... swear that you will lie to me!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5dPHSxF0VNw

Take me far away
Far away
Take us both today
Before we break

Forever changing faces
Whatever gets you free
I just can't go on with this uncertainty
What will bring us face to face
What in me would you replace
If I could fully show you I believe

Take me far away
Far away
Take us both today
Before we break
Take me far away
Need a change to make
All I need to say
We won't break

Forever meet your promise
You won't let me down
Want you in my life
But now you can't be found
Wish you knew how hard I've tried
To be near you all the time
I guess you forget but you won't forgive
Forgive

Take me far away
Far away
Take us both today
Before we break
Listen to the sound
Everyone around
The future on the ground
We won't break
Take me far away
Need a change to make
All I need to say
We won't break
We won't break
We won't break

To feel the warmth..
When I will hold it...
To own the blaze...
When it will ignite me...!
I run... I run in search of,

My Torch, My Soul, My Almightly!!
My Own,
For my own Journey!