Journey to the end... Destinations are few...

My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all

The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all

And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall

It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay, my head just feels in pain

I missed the bus and there'll be hell today, I'm late for work again

And even if I'm there, they'll all imply that I might not last the day

And then you call me and it's not so bad, it's not so bad and

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life

Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life 

Push the door, I'm home at last and I'm soaking through and through

Then you hand me a towel and all I see is you

And even if my house falls down, I wouldn't have a clue

Because you're near me and  

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life

Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

These days I am getting some time to sit back and think, introspect and reflect to my "Journey to the end" during last couple of years. More I try to bring it out here, more I get confused, if I will be able to decipher. Overall, it has been an overwhelming Journey, more than a couple of halfway achievements, and some hiccups.

When I start looking at what I had expected out of myself, Facts and Realities dawn at me. I have made so many mistakes, I have been lazy, I have been ignorant, I have messed up, I have been impulsive, I have got furiously angry, I have not empathized enough, I have not handled situations the way it was expected out of me, I have not met expectations... but above all, I have this constant feeling that I have failed myself, if not anyone else.

Did I give my 100% or was I even trying 10%? I can not freeze the number here... but did I try?

Life will never give me these two years again, for that matter any of my previous years again. If I tried more... I know... I could have been more practical, I could have been less emotional, I could have been proactive, I could have done my homework, I could have controlled my anger, I could have been more compassionate, I could have thought before spilling it out... I know even then it would have created some mess, even then some expectations would still have been hanging mid-way... but above all, I would have felt proud, proud of myself that I gave 100%.

I did try... Yes, I tried... but I was not upto my own expectation... As 2008 is rushing by... I make myself this commitment that I will try... I will try even more... 

Lets 2009 end with a loud and firm belief in me, above everyone else who may have endless expectation out of me, 

"Yes I gave my 100%... Yes I tried 100%".

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just watch you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face

And I

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face

And I

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And will try….

To Fix You

Awesome lyrics and very well sung... I love this song... every word means a lot!

Qaasid ke aate-aate khat ek aur likh rakhoon

Dil-e-Naadan tujhe hua kya hai?
Aakhir is Dard ki Dawa kya hai?
Humko unse hai wafa ki ummeed...
Jo nahi jaante wafa kya hai!!

Hum hain mushtaak(1), aur wo beja(2)
Ya Elahi(3) ye maajra kya hai?

I dont know but everytime i am out of my room... out of my house... in the roads... eating... looking at someone... looking at sky... looking at buildings... looking at people driving... looking at couples talking... I feel everything is in love... everything is so beautiful... everything is good... everything is becoming good... I feel positive... I feeel there is nothing which is not possible...

I look at the tree which has fallen down becoz of the storm in the VIP road... but there are small shrubs... that are growing just beside it... and I am sure they will be big trees one day...

I look at those sign board... those big hoardings... where there were beautiful ads few days before... but now empty... but yes... with small phone numbers written... asking... call me to make me bright and colourful again... and i know they will be again colourful and bright...

At every trafic signal I see the road ahead... all empty... no cars running... but i know.. this signal would be green again... and there would be many cars... driving down that road....

I see people putting together some bricks, iron, cement... I know there will be houses... malls... I dont know if i might live in any of these houses as well... there would be beautiful homes..where a family will live and die together... in pain in sorrow.. in joy in laughter..

Looking at all these things happening around me... when i think... I get this pic... A man... struggling for his life... A man suffering from pain... A man who has a family... A man who has many responsibilities... A man who has a disease... A man who wanted to complete some unfinished task... A man who wanted to be saved... A man who wanted to visit every city in this world... A man who wanted Happiness... A man who wanted Life... Yes more Life... so that he could do what he wanted to... But he couldnot...

Life is a reflection between two mirrors placed parallely infront of each other... One reflecting Happiness... the other Sorrow... One Giving a way... the other rubbing it away... The one so positive... the other never so...

Every person in this world is placed between these two mirrors... which keeps reflecting... It matters which of these two mirrors have his back...!

Koi mere dil se pooche tere neemkash ko..

Ye khalish kahan se hoti, jo jigar k paar hota!!!

Ye na thi humari kismat k vishale yaar hota...

Agar hum jeetay rehte, Yahi intajaar hota!!

Kahun kissay main k kya hai.. shabe gum buri bala hai

Mujhe kya bura tha marna, agar ek baar hota!!!!!!

I face the Wind
I take the Pride
The Tornado engulfs me
And I Fly


I believe the world is right
Very few get this ride
I am lucky it made me Fly.

"For June Who Loved This Garden -
From Joseph Who Always Sat Beside Her."

Anna Scott: "Some people do spend their whole lives together!!!




Come and Sit with me."






Background Song -

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart...
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark...
Try as I may I could never explain...
What I hear when you don't say a thing!!

All day long I can hear people talking out loud...
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd...
Try as they may they can never define...
What's being said between your heart and mine!!

The smile on your face let's me know that you need me...
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me...
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall...
You say it best when you say nothing at all!!!



Source: Notting Hill

Saawan beeto jaaye pi harwa...

Mann mera ghabraaye...

Aiso gaye pardesh piya tum...

Chain humein nahi aaaaaaaye...

Mora Saiyan Mose bole na…Moraaaa saiyan mose bole naaa

Main laakh jatan kar haaaaariii... main laakh jatan kar haar gayi

mora saiyan mose bole na... mora saiyan mose bole na...

Tu jo nahi toh aise piya hum...

Jaise suna aangana...

Nain tehaari raah nihaaren...

Nainan ko tarsaaaaaao na...

Mora Saiyan Mose bole na…Moraaaa saiyan mose bole naaa

Main laakh jatan kar haaaaariii... main laakh jatan kar haar gayi

moraaaa saiyan mose bole na... mora saiyan mose bole na...

Pyar tumhe kitna karte hain...

Tum ye samajh nahi paaoge...

Jab hum na honge toh pi harwa...

Bolo kya tab aaoge...??

Mora Saiyan Mose bole na…Moraaaa saiyan mose bole naaa

Main laakh jatan kar haaaaariii... main laakh jatan kar haar gayi

moraaaa saiyan mose bole na... mora saiyan mose bole na...

As many times I hear this song... my heart fills with the pain of love... yeah we always talk about the joy in love... but one can never appreciate joy without the pain...

The last para is God's creation for people who are helpless and can not be with their loved one...

The man talking to himself... and asking question as if the other person is right in front of him...

All I can say is that it is only time which can solve all problems... Keep believing... if you loose faith there would not be any way out... If you have loved someone... trust him, understand him, respect him, believe in him... coz love is not complete without trust, believe, respect and understanding. These are the four pillars which holds the Villa.... Why Villa why not a Shanty... Coz love is all you need to make your Shanty... a Villa!!!!

It has been long since I visited... Life has changed... Priorities have changed... Struggle has changed, believes have changed... You must be getting confused if I have also changed.. Yeah you are bound to. I have my tough days, I have had my goods days... Life gives you both, I do not know... for how long and which one...

One forever believes and lives in the world of dreams, but does it ever happen.. that... those dreams come true??

Believe me... if it did for you... you are a God's child... Few are not considered..